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What I Want for Christmas [Dec. 18th, 2007|12:46 pm]
[I am at |My Sisters House]
[I Feel |happyhappy]
[Listening To |None]

It's that time of year again.  When I actually get to think of what I want.  Because I'm pretty much selfless through the rest of the year.

An IPod:  I've wanted one for a couple years.  I think this might be the year that I get one.

Peace and Quiet: This will be the first Christmas that there won't be any kids in the house.  I'm looking forward to sleeping in Christmas morning.

A New TV:  The speakers blew on my old one.  I'd had it for ten years, so it was put to good use.  The TV I'm using now doesn't have a DVD hookup to it.  So I'm bored a lot of the time.

I'm not going to ask for Michael Goorjian or Joshua Jackson this year.  The things I've listed above will be just fine.

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My List [Dec. 18th, 2007|12:39 pm]
[I am at |My Sisters]
[I Feel |calmcalm]
[Listening To |None]

I did one of these last year and I figured that it wouldn't hurt do one this year.

What I'm thankful for:

I finally have internet access again:  You don't know how much you appreciate it until it's gone.  After six months of getting on when I can I'm back.

I'm not sick:  It sounds really stupid I know.  But four out of the seven people here are.  I'm constantly using hand sanitizer and washing my hands.

I have a really great family:  We argue like most families do.  I've wanted to strangle my mom quiet a few times in the past year.  And she's probably wanted to do the same thing to me.  But we love each other.

I guess that's it.  It's not much, but I don't live a really exciting life.

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Good Lord, Not Again [Apr. 26th, 2007|02:27 pm]
[I am at |Home]
[I Feel |bouncybouncy]
[Listening To |Sexyback- Justin Timberlake]

You'd think I have enough guys that I think are hot.  This one snuck up on me though.  The culprit?  Garrett Hedlund.  I've seen him in a few movies and then I saw him in Eragan.  Then I found this video on Youtube.  And damn it, he's a sexy bitch.  Here's proof:


He really is bringing sexyback.

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Skater Dudes and Ghosts/Demon Hunters are Okie Dokie [Feb. 1st, 2007|09:54 am]
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[I am at |Home]
[I Feel |blahblah]
[Listening To |Absolutely Nothing]

Being sick does have it's advantages.  It gives me time to catch up on my TV.  I finally saw Lords of Dogtown.  It was good, not as bad as I thought it would be.  I had been wanting to see it forever, but I feel asleep through it the other day.  I think I'm the only person that can say that.  Yes I know, I'm pathetic.  I've also caught up on all the episodes of Supernatural that I have missed.  I don't know what I would do if that or Gilmore Girls were cancelled.  I don't think GG has that much longer though.  Rory will be graduating college at the end of the season.  But it makes for great entertainment.  Speaking of Gilmore Girls, I don't like Logan.  He's a Tristan Dugrey wanna be.  Nobody can fill Chad Michael Murray's shoes.  I may not like CMM now, but I did a few years ago.

Like my niece says: "There's nothing wrong with a little Winchester love."  I'm a Dean girl myself, but she loves everything about Sam.  She calls me every Friday to see if I watched it.  I haven't been for the past month.  That's why I had watch them on youtube.  Last weeks was one of my favorites though.  "I like him, he says okie dokie."  I swear Dean has some of the best one-liners.  You can't help but like him.  Even if he is a man whore.

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This has been the shittest morning I've had in forever [Jan. 29th, 2007|09:07 am]
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[I am at |Home]
[I Feel |sicksick]
[Listening To |Put Me In The Car- Ryan Gosling]

Don't ever let anyone tell you that you can not get sick from your nephew when you aren't in the same room.  It's all a lie.  I think I saw him for a total of twenty seconds the entire I was at my sister's Saturday.  Long enough to run my fingers through his hair and tell him that I loved him.  Then I went straight to wash my hands.  I haven't felt this sick in I don't know how long.  I was up half the night praying to the Porceline God.  And to make this better my niece is home sick.  Not that I mind, but I have zero energy.  The poor kid is quarentined to her room so we don't spread each others germs.  Granted she was around my nephew almost all night.  So I probably caught it from her. What's worse is that I probably spread it to the poor kids at my church.  I'm gonna feel so bad if I did.

I can't even update any of my stories. I have zero ideas right now. Which makes me even more bored than I already am.  I'll probably spend all day watching TV.  I have been meaning to watch Lords of Dogtown.  There's nothing better than watching Heath Ledger when you're sick.  Let me tell ya.  Or maybe I'll watch Newsies. But that wouldn't be fair to my niece.   There's a couple of parts that could always cheer me up.  Maybe a little bit of Ivan molesting the lamp pole during CTB.  Or Trey's wonderful pelvic thrusting talent.  Because lets face it, the boy has talent.

It's days like this that drive me nuts.  I won't get anything I want accomplised.  I'll be lucky if get the laundry done.  It's not even nine-thirty and I'm already bored out of my skull.  I can already tell that this is going to be a great day.  Plus my nephew gets out of school at noon.  I don't know how I'm going to keep him from getting sick.  Hopefully I'll be able to talk him into going outside.  But he hasn't been outside since he broke his arm Thursday.  So I've got my work cut out for me.  

Hopefully I'll feel better tomorrow.  I'm just not used to not having anything to do.
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New Oneshot [Jan. 8th, 2007|01:07 pm]
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[I am at |Home]
[I Feel |happyhappy]
[Listening To |Come To My Window- Melissa Etheridge]

Title: Quitting Is Not An Option
Pairing: Javid
Summary: Jack has given up on everything he believes in. David has something to say about it.

He watched the wagon pull away carrying the one person he thought he knew. The farther away it got the madder he got. He held Les close to him as he cried. He didn't need to see David like this. Sarah was on his other side with her arms wrapped around his neck. Her tears had subsided for the moment. But David knew more would eventually fall. If she only knew which one of them Jack really wanted. How could he leave after he had poured his heart out like he had?

"I don't expect you to unerstand.  But I love you.'"  Jack had said the night David had tried to get him to escape from the Refuge.

"If you love me then come with me."  David said grabbing his hand.

Jack shook his head in annoyance.  He let go of David's hand without looking at him.

"What can I do to get you come with me?"

"Nothing. Now go!"   Jack said pushing him.


"Don't be stupid Dave.  They'll arrest you too."  Jack said glaring at him.

"At least we'd be together."  David said trying to reason with him.

They heard voices around the corner and Jack turned to walk out of the alley.

"Be smart Dave.  Don't follow me."  Jack said before turning the corner.

David heard people talking to Jack asking him if someone was with him.  When Jack said that no one was David hid in the shadows until he heard them walk away.  He hadn't wanted to.  But he would listen to Jack.  He owed him that much.

David clenched his eyes shut not wanting the everyone to see him cry.   He walked through the Distribution center gates and waited in line.  He didn't pay any attention to Mush and Race talking behind him.  He put his money on the counter and felt Mush put his hand on his shoulder.  He turned his head and smiled at his friend before walking down the stairs.  He heard yelling from the crowd outside but tuned it out.  He didn't really care.  Aliens could be landing right out side the gates and he wouldn't have noticed. Les came running up to him pulling on his sleeve.

"Would you stop?  Come on, let's just go."


"I'm not in the mood Les.  I just want to sell our papers and go home."

"But--"  Les said trying to say something again.

Sarah came running up to them next.

"He came back."  She said breathlessly.

"Who came back?"  David asked finally listening.

"It's Jack!"  Mush said from behind them.

David strained his neck to see what was going on.  Sure enough the wagon was making it's way back into town square.  All the bad thoughts David had been thinking of were replaced with shocked and amazement.  He didn't care why Jack was back.  All the times he had call Jack a traitor in his mind vanished as he saw Jack stand up in the carriage.   Les tugged on David's shirt sleeve begging him to hold him up so he could see.  David picked him up and carried him through the crowd.  

They stood on the outskirts watching as Jack stepped down from the carriage and thanked Teddy.  David felt himself being pushed closer so he held Les closer to him.  Jack turned to face the crowd and made eye contact with David.  He smiled at him as David set Les on the ground.  David started to walk towards him but was pushed out of the way by Sarah.  She jumped into Jack's arms and kissed him.  David was the only one that noticed that Jack tensed up once her lips were on his.  He pulled away giving her a shy smile.

Jack made eye contact with David over her shoulder.  Les was already pulling at his coat sleeve trying to get his attention.
Jack looked down at him and ruffled his hair.  He set Sarah down then finally made his way over to David.  Jack pulled David to him and leaned close to whisper in his ear.

"Did you miss me?"  

David pulled away to look him in the eye.  Jack was giving him a teasing smile.  David let out a nervous laugh.  He nodded his head before leaning in to whisper something back.

"Don't you ever do that to me again."

It was Jack's turn to laugh shyly.  He ran a hand through his hair before nodding.  He draped an arm over David's shoulders and pulled him away from the crowd.  He greeted people and patted others on the back never letting go of David.  He pulled him into the alley way behind Tibby's after making sure no one had followed them.  They leaned against the building not looking at each other.  

"Did you mean what you said?  About not caring if you went to jail?"  Jack asked breaking the silence.

"Yeah."  David still not facing him.

"You shouldn't talk like that.  You don't know what it's like."  Jack said shaking his head.

"That doesn't matter.  We would have been together."  David said finally turning to face him.

"Jail changes you Dave.  I don't want you to ever go to jail."  Jack said looking him in the eye.

David sighed before nodding his head.

"I'm sorry for turning my back on you.  But I did what I had to do."

"You don't have to apologize.  I understand.  I don't like it, but I understand."

"You shouldn't just except it."  

"That's what you do when you love someone."  David said moving closer.

"You love me?"

"You didn't give me a chance to tell you the other night."  David said moving even closer.

He stood in front of Jack with his hands on his shoulders.  They heard everyone yelling and laughing in the distance.  But they tuned them out as Jack bridged the gap between them.   David's eyes fluttered closed as Jack let out a content sigh.  Jack wrapped his arms around David's neck.  His fingers were fisted in David's hair making him moan.  Jack took the opportunity to slip his tongue inside David's mouth as he fell back against the building.  

David pulled away breathless a few minutes later.  Jack tightened his grip around his neck keeping him in place.  He dropped his head to Jack's shoulder and buried his face in Jack's neck.

"Next time you have a problem tell me.  Don't think for a second that you can't talk to me."

'It'll never happen again."

"Good, because I hate quitters."  David said looking him in the eye.

Jack let out a small laugh before pulling David back to him.  David head rested on Jack's chest as he ran his hands down David's back.  Things weren't going to be easy.  But they didn't care.  They had each other.
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You learn something new everyday [Jan. 8th, 2007|11:05 am]
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[I am at |Home]
[I Feel |calmcalm]
[Listening To |nothing]

I have a great Newsies story to tell.  I decided to watch it while my brother and sister in law were gone.  I watched the special features first, because that's just what I do.  And wouldn't you know I didn't even get to Carryin' the Banner before they walked in.  So I turned it off thinking I'd watch it later.  My sister in law asked what I was watching and when I told her she said that Newsies was one of her favorite movies.  I never knew that!  So she told me to put it back on.  My niece watched it with us.  She had only seen the first fiteen minutes before.   Halfway through the movie I mentioned that it was the movie that turned me into a Balehead.  My brother being clueless asked what a Balehead was.  My sister in law was the one that answered him.  A few minutes later out of the blue he asked if Jack was the guy who played Batman.  Me and sister in law just looked at each other and rolled our eyes.  Near the end of the movie my niece was behind the couch sitting with my brother and out the blue she started yelling strike.  I couldn't help but laugh.  I don't know about anyone else but I had trouble not singing King of New York.  I tapped my foot like normal, but it wasn't the same.  I just thought I'd share.
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(no subject) [Jan. 2nd, 2007|03:08 pm]
[I am at |home]
[I Feel |coldticked]
[Listening To |Brad Paisley- She's Everything]

I wanted to put this up yesterday, but my brother decided to play video games all day.  It's been a long day, I've been locked out of the house.  I spent an hour and a half looking for jeans, but only found one pair.  So yeah, my day has been a waste.  The good news:  I bought Newsies from Barnes & Noble online.  I should finally have a copy by Friday people!  Took me long enough.  Anyways, onto what this post is really about.

My New Years Resolutions for 2007:  

I know most people don't do these.  But I do.  It'll be the only I get anything done.

Lose Weight:  Since I stopped smoking a year ago I've put on quite a bit of weight.  Stress and spraining my ankle this past Fall didn't help.  But this is one that I am sticking to.

Be Less Forgetful:  This morning proves that.  It doesn't happen often, but I do forget things sometimes.

Learn to Keep My Mouth Shut:  I have a big mouth, sad but true.  It has a mind of it's own I swear.  My sister-in-law hates it.  And I'm working on it.  But it's hard to break a twenty-seven year habit over a couple days.  I am getting better though.  So that's something.

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(no subject) [Dec. 22nd, 2006|11:53 am]
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[I am at |Home]
[I Feel |accomplishedaccomplished]
[Listening To |Some TV show my niece is watching playing in the background]

I learned a lot about myself this year.  All of them are listed below.

That I am stronger than I thought:  Seriously if I got into a fight with someone who was like me a year ago I could totally kick their ass.  I never knew I had it in me.

There is someone out there that understands what I'm going through:  All I have to say is God Bless my my brother and sister in law.  They didn't have to let me move in with them.  But they did.  And now I can't imagine what my life would be like without them.  They are saints.

My opinion counts for something:  I spent all of my life being told that my opinion didn't matter.  I let a lot of people walk all over me.  It's not something I recommend anyone do.  It's not fun.

That I can pretty understanding when I want to be:  I've always known that.  But my patience got tested a lot this year.

There are people out there that depend on me:  I've never had that kind of responsibility.  My nieces and nephews have shown me what unconditional love really is.  They've also shown me that I am not as uptight as people have told me I am.  Abby, Hunter, Kristoper, Jackson, Eric, Brian, and Jessica have been my saving grace this year.  I don't know if I could have gotten through any of it without them.  It sounds strange, I know.  But it's true.
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What I want for Christmas [Dec. 22nd, 2006|11:36 am]
[I am at |Home]
[I Feel |amusedamused]
[Listening To |Gilmore Girls playing in the background]

You know that list that you give to people when they ask you for what you want for Christmas?  This isn't it.  This is my real list.

What Donna really wants for Christmas:

1. A boyfriend:  Maybe then my sister will stop thinking I'm her weekend babysitter.  Don't get me wrong I love my niece and three nephews.  But my sister seems to think that I will drop everything to do whatever she wants.   Plus if I had a boyfriend my parents would stop feeling sorry for me and stop trying to set me up.  It never works.   But if by some miracle I do get blessed by boyfriend Gods I would like a Josh Jackson or Michael Goorjian look alike please.  Since Aaron is taken.   I'll leave him for Layne.

2. Snow:  I can't remember the last time it snowed here on Christmas.  I think I might have been in the single digits.  We've had rain, sleet, we've even had an Ice Storm that knocked out my families power.  

3.  Become a better writer:  Everyone wants to improve on what they are good at.  There's always room for improvement right?

4. For my family to get along:  We've been going at it a lot over the last few months.  It's getting better, don't get me wrong.  But I can only take so much lying and back stabbing.  

Okay, that's what I really want for Christmas.  Anybody that can make any of the things happen gets my gratitude.  That's all I have to give.  Plus, I'll be your best friend.  That's reason enough right there.
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